I saw, under their shedding eyes, behind their subdued smiles, shadowed by their meager sighs, the search, for the strength, to move on.
Merely, an inkling of thoughts about survival, without having to unwillingly imagine the bloodied bodies, the bullet wounds, the bearded men, the deafening noise caused by the rifle shots, bought a flicker of shine in their now dull and secretive eyes.
Cradling the memories they had together, cherishing the moments they had spent together, letting nostalgia sweep over them, they opened the doors of the thoughts that were full of hope, love and happiness. Momentarily, they envisioned themselves back, under those huge green trees, searching for stars in dark silenced nights, finding the meaning behind each shaping cloud, flying along with the soaring feather-flocks high above in the heavens… Oh the good times. Ploughing further for more happiness, drifting away in the sea of pleasure, it suddenly occurred as a lightening had struck, that those were the moments gone. But, it gave them hope. Still, smiling weakly, but this time, with a little more determination, a little willingness, vowing to themselves, that these memories would never get erased. These reminiscences will never wither.
And thus they gain the strength, to move on.
When was the last time, dear ones, that you actually knelt before Allah and prayed for His forgiveness on the countless sins we do in our everyday life without even realizing them?
No, I’m not giving you a sermon. Sermons dont do much good. They give you knowledge, no doubt, but whatever you do, is inside you. It depends on what you think is right or wrong. It all comes from within. And whoever reads this post, is definitely not a child. They know what they’re doing and they’re fully aware of it.
When we pray, we are usually lost mentally. But yeah, we are physically present. One thing which people mostly forget is that if you’re not mentally present, whatever you do physically might be full of faults too. For instance, we recite some surah. Our mind gets diverted in the middle of the recitation, all thanks to Satan of course, and the result is that we are left hanging in complete shame. “Where was I? Oh God!” And we start it again. We dont realize that God is in front of us, observing all this. How embarrassing it would be if God would be actually present and we get stuck in from of Him during recitation? Just give it a thought.
So the thing is, how to avoid that diversion? The best way is to recite everything a bit loudly (I’m of course talking about females here, males already do that). Secondly, before starting your prayers, remind yourself what you’re about to do. Remind yourself of the sins you’ve done. Remind yourself of the the sins you’re really ashamed of. This will in turn make you feel guilty and you’ll turn to Allah with shame and fear. It works. And Allah says that He wants you to pray with full dedication. So what’s better then, eh? Finally, remind yourself of the of Judgement. Keep reminding yourself that Allah can see you. So if your hands are not properly reaching your ears for takbeer, you’ll automatically stay focused and correct yourself.
I’ve tried it myself and I find it very useful. Only you have the ability to fight off Satan. And you can do it. Because keep in mind, your number of prayers do count but it is your niyyat that count more.